I should be holding a newborn now,
I should be sleep deprived now,
I should be watching Bailey and Sophie fall in love with their new sibling now,
I should be, but I am not.
Sometimes, even now it is hard for me to believe,
Sometimes, I want to try for another baby,
Sometimes, I don't know if I could handle it if something went wrong again,
I should be stronger, but I am not.